Work+Bored+Dugaan+Rezeki

Frankly speaking, I don't have any motivation to go to work. Pergi keje hanyalah utk dpt gaji. It became worst when CCM tenderred resignation. Then, I am the one to write minutes of meeting, you name it, Technical Committee Mtg, Mgmt Committee Mtg, and in June Board of Directors Mtg. I am also doing Procurement, HR, Admin & HSE. Aku rasalah kalau boleh, IT pun dia nak suruh aku take over. With the salary of only one work, I don't know for how long I can take this. When you do not have the motivation to work, you tend to be late for work. One of the bosses sounded me yesterday. He asked me to come early especially when the project starts soon. More work and I cannot afford to reach late to the office. Thts what he meant. Today, I leave early but you know what, I was stucked at Jalan Duta tol for half an hour. Such a terrible jam, bumper to bumper. I am trying to reach early today and i guess i believe this is 'dugaan' for me. That will not stop me or patahkan my semangat utk sampai awal esok. I know i have lots of work to do but i just want to express my deepest feeling. Seriously, no motivation. Semua kawan2 aku dah pg keje kat tempat lain, in fact yg non exec pun dpt gaji lagi byk dari aku yg exec ni. Tapi aku percaya pada rezeki yg Allah berikan pada aku. Mungkin gaji yg kurang tapi rezeki aku kat tempat lain, cukup makan, cukup pakai, hubby yg baik, anak2 yg comel, macam2lah. Ok, enough from now. I need to get back to work.